Everything just seems to be going downhill..

ugh.

But everything happens for a reason right?

I have been majorly slacking..

Econ test today. Let’s hope & Pray that I pass..

But yesterday was so weird. I swear me & nyke knew almost everyone in the huge ass dining hall, somehow or another -> total accomplishment. :)

Okay, I’d say more…but I have bio to go to :(

au revoir mi amors

I’ve barely been on this thing. But i will start more, so I can look back on my feelings & everything that I go through.

so let’s update:

I love college-> I’ve met so many amazing people, who are completely different from me. I swear I meet atleast 3-4 new ppl a day. I’ve been able to balance partying & doing my schoolwork. I’ve had so many memorable sat & fri nights already with my new friends. My roommate’s awesome & we get along well. & I have a boo kinda, but we’re going to take things SUPER slow.. so we can both focus on why we’re actually here & not so much eachother. but thankfully, we’re NOT at all friends with benefits. I’ve even gotten involved in a club called Central spirit, where we hold pep rallies, do balloons & are basically the spirit side of the athletic department. Things are really going well, & I couldn’t ask for a better college experience.

BUT I do miss my pets ALOT..  & my family. But when I went home the very first weekend, I found myself missing Clemson. I guess it’s truly starting to feel like home here. :)

But also, with me meeting new people, I’m realizing what I do & don’t deserve.

I’m too nice… I let people run over me & tell me my ideas/ thoughts are stupid. I’ve been realized this, but meeting new people who BARELY know me, yet respect my opinions made me realize I deserve better. I don’t need negative people in my life, ones that constantly have issues& block everybody out.. It’s like I’m on a rollercoaster, never knowing what mood I’m going to receive day after day. I try to be optimistic & i constantly get slapped in the face for trying to understand everyone’s problems. so fuck that.

I’m still going to be nice, but from now on- I def. promise to myself that I won’t settle for less than i deserve from friends, guys, anyone. I’m not going to let others’ problems affect my emotional state either..

But one thing i do wish, which is kind of random:

I hope Ave does transfer here next year.. if her credits will transfer.

But that’s all for now!

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